day 1
background : i’ve been dating an amazing guy for about 2 months now (but its been over 4 months since we’ve been hanging out). We have the most fun together. Laugh, giggle, we are a so silly together. He makes me so happy with everything he says. He’s so sweet and helps me be the best me!… but he came at a weird point in my life. before i had met him i was still going through a break up with an ex who i had dated for 3 years. I was pretty much over this ex, however, i couldnt keep him out of my life. a couple text here and there or some phone calls.
now yesterday my current boyfriend (well i guess now ex) realized that he does not want to be in the middle of this three way love triangle. and i’ve tried to assure him that i have no current feelings towards my ex.. but i according to my actions he’s not really trusting of me. and i understand that i’ve messed things up by talking to an ex, but im not willing for it to ruin this wonderful relationship that im in now. and i’m want to cut off all ties with my ex… but i dont think it matters to my current boyfriend. how do i regain his trust? i mean i’ve never cheated or ever had thought of it… but i’m so mad at myself for even letting him have an inch of doubt about our relationship. i feel so miserable. but its time for a change. i think this will give me a chance to really heal from my first big break up and let go of my ex. and not just for my current boyfriend, but for me. i need to move on and stop holding on to the past. its over! and i need to understand that. i hope that my boyfriend can forgive me and see that my actions will speak over all these “i’m sorrys”. its so hard to not talk to him and hear his voice. but i know its for the best. and if he can forgive me i want to prove that i am trust worthy and i that i will be there for him and that my heart will only be for him. …. its just a little of a rough start. but it will get better, it can only get better, right?
